I DID IT! 16 weeks later and I have finally completed the Kayla Itsines BBG Program! Considering I bought the guide back in 2016 and have started the program multiple times, this is a huge accomplishment for me. While I am nowhere near where I’d like to be, I am proud to say I’ve kickstart my healthy journey and it’s now a daily habit.
THE DOWN FALL
Because I use to workout 5 to 6 days a week, sometimes twice a day and only ate non processed, “clean foods” (no gluten, no dairy, no soy, no corn) I gained weight very quickly after I stopped acting.
With acting, I had very little control. My days revolved around waiting for an audition and going to callbacks. Sometimes I’d be on set for 12 hours for a job. The cycle would repeat. This left me with a lot of time on my hands. I filled my time with exercise and the latest healthy food craze on an obsessive level. These were things I could control in my life.
When I started my YouTube channel, I found so much joy in creating content and being apart of a community that had nothing to do with acting. I started spending all my free time creating videos and watching YouTube. My diet changed along the way as well because I was struggling with what I wanted to do with my life. Should I continue the constant cycle of auditions or focus on creating content I enjoyed?
All I ever knew as an adult was acting. When I told my mom I wanted to stop, she was nervous and worried about me because what was I going to do for a living? Where would my life go? Everything in my life revolved around acting including my husband. That's how we met. All my friends were actors or performers of some sort.
Before we go farther, I have a lot of fear about posting my results after 16 weeks of BBG. When it comes to body image and healthy there is a lot of judgment from everyone as well as myself. Most of my life I’ve strived to be as skinny as possible. Not healthy and strong. I’ve always been a bit curvier, even as a pre teen. I remember developing breasts and feeling very self conscious in dance class because I was “bigger” than the other girls.
Spending most of my teens and adult life in the entertainment industry didn’t help either. While I never felt direct pressure to lose weight, I knew it was part of my job and I was surrounded by people constantly obsessing over their bodies.
A SLOW FALL
As my lifestyle changed, I started to gain a little weight. I would still exercise, but not as much and my diet definitely changed. Looking back I think I was dealing with a lot emotionally about giving up this career I’d been so accustomed to. While it was a struggle and caused a lot of heartache, it was familiar. I was lax about my diet and ate a lot of chips and In N Out.
During this time, while I gained a little weight, it wasn’t noticeable yet and I was about to start BBG. At the time I had heard about BBG through other bloggers, specifically Remi Ishizuka of rrayyme and thought it was a perfect way to kickstart my workouts again.
LIFE LIKES TO KICK YOU WHEN YOUR DOWN
Right around the time I was planning to start BBG the first time, my mom had her stroke. I was a wreck and could barely function. Working out and my health were the least of my priorities. I ate whatever I wanted including anything that would bring me comfort. My life became very sedentary. Zero working out.
As my mom’s condition stabilized a bit, I would always try to start up again, but failed to maintain a routine. Again eating whatever would bring me comfort.
Last February I lost my mom and it’s taken almost a year and the urging of my doctor to get me to finally focus on my health again. So this past December, I decided I would start AND FINISH BBG. No matter what, I was going to finish this damn 12 week program.
WHAT IS BBG?
BBG is short for Bikini Body Guide created by Kayla Itsines, an Australian fitness trainer. Her 12 week circuit training program that includes a 4 week pre training guide for those who are not use to this type of training has amazing transformation claims all over the world. Check out all the #BBGtransformation on Instagram or www.kaylaitsines.com for real women transformation photos and stories.
SUCKS! I was so out of shape at this point and the heaviest I’d ever been at 150lbs that the pre training workouts would knock the wind out of me. I'd want to throw up after each workout. Having always been pretty fit, this was a huge blow to the ego. This is where I like to point out that while most people would not consider me overweight or in need of a health overhaul, my health was not okay. It’s not always about size or weight, it’s about the fact that I was weak and out of shape for someone my age.
I stuck through the first 4 weeks to complete pre training with the motivation that if you can do this for a month, it then becomes a habit. The first month is the hardest.
BBG 12 WEEK PROGRAM
We all know that I finished the 12 week guides + 4 weeks of pre training by now, but the feeling of accomplishment is more than I can express. Am I where I want to be? No, but I finished and here are the things I learned as I continue my health journey.
LIFE AFTER BIKINI BODY GUIDE
What’s next? I’m going to repeat the 12 week training for now. At some point I’d like to do my own thing or get a trainer to help with my workouts, but for now the BBG program is working for my circumstances.
I still have some weight to lose. Currently I’m around 143 lbs, still heavier than I should be, but I’ve stopped focusing on my weight and more on my fitness level. I’d like to tone up even more and not be out of breath easily. My cardio can definitely improve and I’d like to add more weights to the exercises.
Diet wise, I don’t deprive myself of anything, but I can always eat better. There are certain foods my body does not function well on, so I will avoid those. Overall I feel like I could eat more. With the schedule I keep and eating whole foods, I need to eat more to fuel my body so my metabolism doesn't slow down.
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