On the eve of my 35th birthday I’m feeling a lot of emotions not all good, so to get some thoughts out and reflect on the decade year, I decided to write a letter to myself.
To the person 10 years younger. Here’s what I have to say to you…
Letter To Myself
Dear 25 Year Old Serein,
This is you at the eve of our 35 birthday writing to you.
Let go, don’t be afraid, and follow all your instincts. You’ll meet the love of your life at the end of this year, so don’t worry about love. Instead focus on facing your fears. Stop allowing fear to hold you back. You may not even realize how much it does, but it does. If it scares you, go for it. Don’t let doubt and worry about what people may think to dictate your life. Be who you are, the good, the bad, and the ugly. The people in your life that are meant to stay will stay.
This next part is very important. Spend as much time with mom as you can. Cherish every moment. Stop rolling your eyes when she calls and leaves voicemails, save them. Visit mom more. Spend quality time with here, make her go out with you. Plan more trips with her. I promise there’s not enough time you can spend with mom.
You know that YouTube video you watched of Michelle Phan to get inspiration for your 25th birthday party? Don’t stop watching. In fact go get a camera and start filming and uploading your own videos. Don’t wait, just do it. Share what you love already online.
Enjoy all the junk food and late night snacks because it’ll catch up and you won’t be able to eat the way you are now. If you can try to eat some veggies a few times a week I’d appreciate that. Relax on the soda and sugar too, it’s just not good for us and we are not invinsible.
Your crazy neighbor who asks to borrow money? Just say no. He’ll come back and keep asking you if you lend him anything.
When you want to leave a situation or make a change, do it. Don’t hesitate. All your instincts are right and you tend to let others talk you out of it.
Start saving for a rainy day because it’ll come. That apartment you moved into in the summer, don’t move out! Keep it. It’s a great find. Stay there for as long as you can. Even when your new boyfriend wants to move in, let him.
There’s this thing called van life and you should look into it and do it before it’s too late. Convince your new boyfriend to do it with you. All the designer wants and materialistic things that the world tells us we need to be adults, it’s a lie. Go travel the world and live in a van. Oh and if you want to get your estheticians license, go do it.
Honestly, so many of the heartaches lead you to me and I’m not sure there’s too much I’d want to change. It’s like those time travel movies, if we change too much maybe I wouldn’t have what I have now and to be honest, we have a good life. Yes there are things I’d wish I’d done and things I wish I didn’t do, but at the end of the day we turn out okay.
So Happy Birthday!
Serein (at almost 35)